Wow... I have been SO busy recently. My life has just gotten out of control. Lets see, where to begin.
Well, for starters Micah is doing MUCH better. I was a very paranoid mama for about 5 days. Every time I looked at him I evaluated and assessed him. It's really hard not having any answers to all of my "why" questions, but I'm learning to move past that. We have yet to schedule the appointment with the Pulmonoligist and the Allergy Specialist. I need to get a move on and get that done! That whole ordeal was just SUCH a scare... I hate to even take my mind back there.
Arie had another feeding clinic visit. He has only gained 8oz in the past 2 months, so at 11 months old he now weighs 16lbs. The odd thing is that he is actually taking in enough calories now, so his doctors are going to do more lab work (sigh) to check for metabolic problems. In addition to adding powered formula to all of his foods and concentrating his bottles, we are now adding powdered fat/carbs (called Duocal) to any liquid he takes in. Making his bottles is like a chemistry experiment minus the explosions. The concern with his weight is not that he is small but that he isn't gaining weight on a consistent scale... 8 oz. in two months (for an infant) is just not that much. So that's the news on Arie.
With all of the health needs of the boys, I have been reevaluating my life. I have been so overwhelmed recently with so many different things. Micah turning blue, Arie and his eating, Elaine and her "I'm the boss" attitude, keeping up with my job requirements, house work, working at the gym (I work in the child care room 2 hours a week), etc etc etc. I am just getting so worn down, so I've decided to prioritize my life.
On April 1st I turned in my resignation letter at work. I have been tossing the decision back and forth for two years now, but after the medical crisis with Micah, I decided enough was enough. I have been a Labor and Delivery nurse for 6 years, and I LOVE it. I am so thankful that I was able to help so many lives enter into this world. I plan on returning once at least two of my children are in school. My last day is April 21st, and I don't work between now and then. It's going to be such a bitter-sweet day. Bitter because I'm leaving a job I love and one that I'm proud of, and sweet because I am blessed and financially able to stay home with my children. I cried the whole way home from work on Sunday... I will truly miss my co-workers and the patients.
In addition to leaving my job I have also been spending FAR LESS TIME on the computer. Basically if I leave any two of my children in a room together someone gets hurt, so I have to constantly referee them. They are all so cute, but WOW, they can exhaust me!!!
I will still be updating my blog, just not as often as I use to. I'm on a search for a less chaotic life. I want my kids to grow up and remember their mommy as someone who was happy and full of life, not someone who was grumpy and stressed out all of the time. Let the search begin!
